For you, Lord.

I have to admit I didn't have a lot on my mind when I was a child. I loved G.I. Joe's, soccer, and going to camp. I didn't care about much else because I was too young and naive to believe anything else was important.

Unfortunately, nobody ever told me when I was a little boy that when I grow up I'll be blamed for all relationship failures.

You know, Moms and Dads don't sit their prepubescent boys down and explain, "No matter your character, integrity, faith or intentions, if a romantic relationship ends that you are a part of, you will be blamed for the failure and disliked by your ex's friends and family. I'm sorry son, but you'll go from being a man of great integrity and character, to the one labeled by her family as, 'the one who scarred our daughter.' No, you're right, that's not fair. But it's life. One minute they'll hug you and tell you they love you, and the next day they'll have nothing but negative things to say."

When did it become so wrong to follow what you feel the Lord telling you to do? I can't explain why He wanted me to break up with my girlfriend, but He did. Nobody seems to understand that. But you know, nobody understood why Noah built an ark when rain didn't exist. Nobody understood when Justin stood in the pit, preaching the word of God to those who were stoning him to death. Nobody understood how the little child David could battle the mighty Goliath.

I am acting in faith, and unfortunately other human's are making it a difficult thing to do. Emotionally laden phone calls at 1:30am, pointing out my faults and ignoring my gifts, and blindly making blanket statements without understanding me are causing this act of faith to be a tremendous struggle of will.

So be it.