For you, Lord.

I haven't posted in awhile because I've begun to doubt the effectiveness of this blog. As personally therapeutic as it has been, it's also caused division and stress in my life.

I also think I have outgrown this blog. Or, rather, I have outgrown the purpose for which it originally began. Anytime I think to myself, "I should blog about this, it will help", I realize no matter what I say or what I feel all boils down to accomplishing one thing...placing trust in God. Every entry should conclude with a final exultation to trust Him, that He is worthy of my trust, has demonstrated over the years that He is faithful, and that I only err when I begin to place my trust elsewhere. That singular realization is the capstone to the Christian life and, as a result, the remainder of my life will be centered upon the struggle to consistently and continuously trust Him rather than myself or the things of this world. I don't need to blog about that, I need to do it. I need to take action on that realization.

And I have. This summer epitomized my struggle to trust Him verses trusting myself and seeking those things which I want, but not necessarily those things which I need. He blessed me by revealing His word to me through Psalm 91:1-2 prior to my departure from Jackson. His word says...

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
Will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the Lord, 'My refuse and my fortress, My God, in whom I trust!'"

Whereas I began this blog nearly 5 years ago, titled, "For You, Lord", with my life verse pertaining to the depths and length to which He will go to save His lost children, of which I was one of the greatest, in Deuteronomy 30:4, I now feel the more appropriate and applicable life verse is Psalm 91:1-2. It took 4 years to realize it's not about me; it's about Him. He's the rock upon which we can stand. The cornerstone to the foundation of the house that cannot be blown over. He is infallible, immovable, and the only truth. Everything else that happens in our day-to-day lives should not and cannot take precedence over offering our worship to Him.

I will still blog, I'm sure. The purpose to my blogs, however, will change. They will be an attempt to refocus my mental and emotional energy on trusting God.

I am no more. I exist as a singular "he" in who the Spirit dwells, and I pray that Spirit will forever dwell within me and enable me to continuously place my trust in Him. There is no greater purpose to life.

Amen.